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Resisting the twilight of her career, a much-loved high wire performer climbs the tallest tree in an old-growth redwood state forest to battle corporate forces colluding to clear-cut the land and install another vineyard. She sets living quarters and a high-tech media nest in the branches and her antics to draw national attention reignite old wounds in the adjacent rural community, embolden the local Indian tribe to confront its legacy of shame, and threaten the governor who depends on corporate money for reelection. When a humble craftsman from Japan takes interest in the forest, all the parties must reevaluate their beliefs to address this greater threat.
The Taking: Chapter One
Seated on the porch swing, Delicia propped her feet on the smaller of her two suitcases and scanned the horizon for the swirl of dust the Land Rover would kick up on the Provincial Road. Shadows were long, and though the house at her back still slept, antelope were already browsing in the Sammundo Prairie, raising their heads only to scan for cheetahs. Wildebeests were stirring mud in the watering hole by Tragic Rocks. And snakes everywhere were emerging from their dens. Close at hand, the cries of tree frogs testified to the heat yet to come.
Twice yesterday, she had called the transport company, imploring them to pick her up at seven so she could leave unnoticed, and they had given her their firm commitment. But as the sun climbed, she accepted that her campaign to bring punctuality to Africa had failed.
On a normal day, she would have already taken the jeep to check on the elephants. Her fascination with them had led her to every corner of the preserve, and she had taken hundreds of photographs of their rituals of waking, nurturing, and greeting each other. But today she was doing a remarkable job of blocking all thoughts of them. And if she had any luck, California’s superficiality and speed would help her bury her memories of this place completely.
Last night at dinner she had said her goodbyes, and with the help of two slow-sipped Jamesons, she’d managed to slough off the humiliations Doctor Joseph embedded in his toasts to her time there. She praised herself for her grace in making it through. But now she sat baffled, both hoping not to hear his footfall and listening intently for it—those magically long bare feet, padding in search of coffee to jumpstart his aging body. There was so much about him she still didn’t know, this man who had graciously offered her a future when her dream career fell hard to earth. Just how old was he, for instance? Whenever she’d asked, he’d changed the subject to an article he’d just read, chores to be done, or news from town.
After tossing much of the night, she had overslept. Robbie’s pickup truck rattling the cattle guard beyond the holding pens woke her bolt upright. She would miss him and his whale-sized smile of white teeth. She and Robbie had learned to mangle enough simple sentences in each other’s language to make them laugh as equals, but mostly they communicated with hands and eyes. Months before, as a gift to her, he’d hung a slack rope between two massive branches of a Mukwa tree and many evenings he was her only audience as she ran through old routines, intending to prove the doctors wrong by rehabbing her injuries. She regretted having succumbed to Doctor Joseph’s charms. Robbie was the one she should have been sleeping with, except that whenever the thought crossed her mind in his presence, Robbie’s hand instinctively reached for the cross that hung around his beautiful black neck.
She was leaving with less than she brought, clear now how owning fewer things simplified the way forward. She would need that technique, and more, to endure her stay with Aunt Stephanie. Even the woman’s letter smelled of alcohol. But God love her, somehow Stephanie heard the news about Maya being killed and sent her invitation via two-day delivery that same afternoon. As women of her generation were bred to do, Stephanie wrote around the subject, referring only to ‘your loss.’ But she was eloquent about the solution.
“So my dear Delicia, this is a time to seek solace with family. And since I am the only family you have left, please honor us both by coming to live here until this all blows over.”
Truth be told, Maya being so famous, her letter was one of hundreds that came. Donations poured in, too. So many, in fact, that Delicia caught Doctor Joseph musing about silver linings. And in response, ten days before on this very same porch, she’d frozen him with a glare, one of the few times she’d overpowered his considerable defenses.
Stephanie was the only person whose caring came with a plan, but in saying this would blow over, she was dead wrong. It never would. Underneath, Delicia suspected that, being a childless curmudgeon, her aunt was unconsciously motivated to avoid dying alone. Still, the notion of retreating to family had merit. When she imagined moving in with used-up circus people, she foresaw a life infused with failure and loneliness. So she ignored her intuition and wrote Stephanie back, saying she’d arrive as soon as United Airlines could get her there. Which was odd, because intuition had always been her North Star. She’d had a powerful premonition of doom the night in St. Petersburg that the bolt failed. And she’d known Alphonse would leave her for Kimberly before either of them knew they were destined for lust in the third degree.
With a jolt, her heart registered a dark shape etching a line of dust left to right across the land. She rechecked her carryon for tickets, passport, and money and snapped it closed. If there were no coup in one of the three stopover countries, she would be in Berlin in twenty-four hours. She tugged off the band that held her hair, gave her head a shake and rose to groom her reflection in the kitchen window. Damn, if Dr. Joseph’s face wasn’t there to cloud hers, though their eyes didn’t meet, exactly. He was looking to the horizon as well. Not in pajamas this morning. In fact, he must have been up for some time to prep his suit so nicely, right down to a fresh camellia flower in his lapel. An African in a suit could only mean one thing, and his look made her turn again to the road. Yes, more than one vehicle was on it—a blue moon kind of occurrence in this part of the country. Three vans in a convoy were a mile behind. As was typical, Joseph had mentioned nothing of this delegation and as if to mark the moment, a trio of vultures glided into view from behind the house and began circling.
The Rover inched forward, drove past the compound, and entered the northwest gate, disappearing in the gauntlet of giant trees that Joseph told everyone he had planted, the implication left for the listener to gather—that Doctor Waluco ‘Joseph’ Wassama had been caring for Africa’s wild creatures long before the movement was fashionable. Delicia had responded with awe when he’d told her, but now she criticized the naïve woman she’d been just twenty months ago. How had someone of her fame and worldliness missed so many clues?
Lost in thought, she didn’t hear the door behind her swing open.
“Does my tie look all right?” He wore a posture of self-doubt, a tool of innocence he mostly held in reserve.
“You waited, didn’t you?” she said. “How like you to appear with too little time to engage in anything genuine.”
Joseph flinched. “You seem to have answered your own question.” He looked again at the road.
She took delight in his discomfort. “The government commission, finally?” she asked. “Perhaps I should stay another day.” The last of the three vehicles had turned the corner. “Or is it the brass from Préservation Euro delivering suitcases of grant money?”
Doctor Joseph took a few steps toward the wide stairs that descended to the driveway and folded his hands behind him, a move designed to avoid seeing her eyes, while presenting the iconic image. Master of the Preserve. Ever prompt, ready and regal.
“Whoever it is, I’m sure they would be interested in testimony contradicting your storyline that all the systems were normal that night.” She broke into a sweat.
Joseph responded with a half turn, the look the lion gives its unruly cubs.
“Robbie knows,” she said, instantly mortified at implicating her friend and still unable to stop herself, “that if you hadn’t been fucking Katarina, you’d have remembered to turn on the perimeter breach alarms. It was your duty that night.”
Joseph lifted and reset his shoulders, not a sign of shrugging her off, just the opposite. She’d hit him. “I’m surprised, Delicia, that you drag your pettiness into this tragic event. We who choose the path of safeguarding God’s creatures from the human race,”—and to mock him, she recited his words in unison just loud enough for him to hear—“the one creation of God’s that still needs improvement.”
He stopped and turned, his lips engaged as if sucking an after-dinner mint. “You are understandably distraught,” he said. “We all are. But I trust in your love for animals. There is no doubt about that, which is why I couldn’t keep from revering you when you arrived.”
He had hit her back, not where it hurt, but where it didn’t, by honoring her in the place she loved most about herself. Oh, how masterfully perverse he was. And as she was taking this in, he said, “Too bad for them that you’re leaving. Even worse for you, I fear. I wonder if you’ll ever find something to dedicate your life to again.”
The Rover emerged from the screen of the trees to the right of the porch and entered the turnaround. She wouldn’t let him have the last word. “Katarina couldn’t carry a gram of that spirit in a wide bowl.”
He turned from her to be facing the convoy when it arrived. “You’re right,” he said. “She couldn’t. So I trust you won’t jeopardize all the good work we do. Think, Delicia, of the baby elephants.” He stretched his arm to the miles of open land south of the compound. “They will be thriving and giving birth long after we are in the ground. They are your legacy. Our legacy at Tsongumatta Wildlife Preserve. We are mere humans, you and I, doing the best we can.”
Najii was out of his vehicle, an uncomplicated smile on his face, holding up his long-fingered hand in greeting, a line of dark pigment etched around the tan of his palm.
“You, today, Ms. Delicia. I can belief it,” he said, meaning the opposite. He tapped that beautiful hand on his chest. “You really leaving?”
She felt light-headed, surrounded by love—real, feigned and complicated. Words failed her and she found herself acknowledging Najii in a plié crossed with a curtsey, and the years flew back to New Jersey, to the beginning of her dreams that had come true, and untrue again. This simple move rebalanced her emotions. The vehicles parking behind the Rover bore seals of Préservation Euro. Better than anyone, she knew the lapses here, lapses that had led to Maya being sacrificed.
“Besides,” Joseph said, now under his breath as he waved to the vehicles. “These men all have girlfriends and very well know how it is when things turn bad.”
So in the end, that’s how it was with men. You are not to be believed. Not because you lie, but because men set the rules. Hush and be satisfied with the pleasures you get. If you fashion Delilah a heroine for cutting Sampson’s hair, consider how history remembers her.
Doors of the convoy slammed. Hands dusting pressed pants and straightening ties, men strutting like Orwell’s pigs after they’d expelled Mr. Jones from the farmhouse. Najii had mounted the stairs and shaken Doctor Joseph’s hand. She sensed him looking to her for guidance and then sidling off toward her suitcases. The members of the commission were approaching en masse, preparing their charismatic greeting rituals.
As quickly as her thoughts were born, her hands obeyed, lifting the straps and pulling. Her sundress slid over her head without a hitch and she let it fall. The host of African men stopped in their tracks and Joseph followed their eyes to her. That last article in People Magazine had said half of the men in the world longed to see her just like this, without a spangle or jewel-studded seam. Delicia Fortunado, “Cirque de la Lune’s Great Bird.” To enhance their view of her breasts she raised her elbows and, shimmying her hips like a belly dancer, shuffle-stepped a full circle turn. Poor Najii, holding the suitcases, eyes comically wide. She hadn’t considered him. But she was transported to her greatest days, when she would fling herself from the trapeze across the space of the Big Top or conjure a dream on the high wire with her signature moonwalk. It had been a wonderful career, night after night giving of herself completely but rarely having to rely on words. Now she had a stage where her audience would listen. What did she have to say? Doctor Joseph’s skin turned from its luscious color of mole to purple. She spread her hands waiting for words to come.
At last, she said, “Doctor Joseph Wassama is eager to explain to you gentlemen why he couldn’t hear the breach alarm when poachers came for Maya’s tusks.”
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As rioting for freedom spreads through the Eastern Bloc nations in 1989, a New York Times journalist desperate to jumpstart his career slips behind the Iron Curtain and deep into Russia. Pursuing rumors that might finally prove which WWII country massacred half the Polish Army officer corps, the bigger story he stumbles upon and brings back is sure to shatter the Soviet Union and win the Cold War for the West. But every American paper blackballs him, and both US and foreign operatives dog his movements. An explosion in his Vienna home drives him back into the fire engulfling the Soviet empire to find and expose what he missed there that has unified former enemies and made him a spy without a country.
Imperfect Burials: Chapter One
The note looked innocent. Simple cardstock, folded once with care. The beautiful photographer from Naples that Wade brought up from the foreigners’ lounge saw it first, lying on the floor when he opened the door to his hotel room. Laughing, she held it behind her for the ransom of a kiss and after he paid, they both wanted more. But what he read stunned him and as he pondered his priorities, her patience crumbled. Moments later, with her bitter stream of Italian ringing in his ears, he trotted down the worn marble staircase, crossed the lobby, and headed into Warsaw’s unlit streets.
Rain fell on grimy snow and except for soldiers huddling miserable in doorways, the city prepared for sleep. His throat burned from the smoke of a million coal stoves that wives had lit to warm husbands returning from the day’s demonstrations, and curtains drawn to hold the heat made the night seem thick with secrets. Underfoot, slush masked ice.
Wade didn’t see the pair of soldiers until they had him flattened against the door of a bank. They were surly, not young, and when his ace in the hole—his American passport and press ID—failed to appease them, he grabbed the first thing that came to mind, saying in perfect Polish, “I’m on my way to the cathedral to pray for your countrymen.” His fluency caught them off guard and they released him with smiles and thumbs up, not pausing to consider that the cathedral was behind him.
And in that way they confirmed his choice.
Further on, as he turned up his collar to ward off the rain, his feet slid in different directions on a patch of ice. He didn’t fall—he’d grown up in snow country—but he took a moment under an awning to gather himself and to check the address. The note was written in a confident hand. Strategy meeting. Come on foot and alone to the fourth floor. No recorders, no pen or paper. It was signed with a red ink stamp. Solidarnosc.
Wade understood the caution. Any leak could hand advantage to the government. Still, he felt naked without the tools of his trade.
Behind the old school at Kowalski 137, he found a matchbook inserted between the doorjamb and the strike to keep the heavy wooden door unlocked. He looked at his watch and once inside, he headed up the darkened stairway on which the door opened, lighting a match at each landing. His footsteps echoed and through his shoes, he felt the swales that countless feet had worn into the stone treads.
Had he been using all his senses, he might have smelled the man who grabbed his arm on the third floor landing. Russian tobacco left a bitter odor on the breath.
“Kill the light if you want to live.”
Surprise jerked Wade’s hand and the flame died.
“What are you doing here?” The voice was thick with phlegm and the accent wasn’t local. Wade guessed the man was in his sixties.
“I’m here for a meeting of—” he paused, wondering if he’d he ever get used to the games required to work behind the Iron Curtain—“some old friends.”
“It’s late for a meeting, isn’t it?” There was wariness in the voice, with a splash of amusement, as if the man were playing poker in the dark.
Wade laid down a queen. “Some soldiers were bored and decided to play with me, so I’m later than the note specified.”
“The one slipped under my door this evening. Sometime before ten-thirty.”
The man’s chuckle rumbled in the stairwell. Or perhaps he was clearing his throat. He flicked on a flashlight that cast a weary glow on heavy wool pant cuffs gathered on street shoes. “Go to the next landing. If you’re the right man, we may meet again.”
Wade climbed another flight and after checking his conviction, opened the door. Low wattage bulbs overhead lit a long hallway. A sturdy fellow leaned against the wall, hands in jacket pockets, his breath steaming in the air.
“You’re the journalist who speaks Russian?” He was in his late thirties, heavy browed, with a moustache that conveyed virility. The hand he extended was missing the index finger.
Wade shook it, wondering how he managed a pencil. “Yes, I know some Russian.”
Still holding his hand, the man inspected him up and down. “And your Polish is good.”
“My mother was born in Poznań.”
The man considered this. “You have no recorder, correct?”
Wade shook his head, trying to imagine why his knowing Russian was important. Most Poles spoke some or could get by because it was a sister language. Perhaps Solidarity had caught a spy or someone had defected to their cause. A Western journalist’s wet dream.
Clarissa would argue otherwise. Time and again his wife had warned about his ambition landing him in dangerous places.
“Arms out. Spread your legs.”
Wade’s credentials usually spared him being frisked. Excited that maybe Walesa, the head of Solidarity, had asked to see him, he raised his arms and felt stern brush strokes down his body core and from his groin to his boots.
Satisfied, the man poked his chin down the hall. “That way.”
Only then did Wade hear boisterous voices in a distant room, rising in bursts, overlapping each other like waves on a beach. The cadence of fierce debate.
When Wade’s escort rapped, the voices hushed and the door opened. For a moment cigarette smoke obscured the faces. Wade had never been allowed into the big room when the Round Table Talks were taking place, but the giant in the worn wool vest whose chair faced the door often spoke to the press during the breaks. Mateusz Dabrowski, an organizer from shipyards in the north, wore a stevedore hat even during the sessions. The word was that he would take over if anything happened to Walesa.
“You,” Dabrowski said, motioning to Wade with a hand the size of a baseball glove. “If you came on such short notice, you obviously weren’t with a woman. Don’t you like Polish girls?”
Laughter rolled around the room and Wade met it with brightened eyes. He did like Polish women, dammit, in particular, the ones who served food and coffee to the press corps. They moved like ordinary waitresses until they had cleared the plates, when they poured forth passion and intelligence such as he only heard in places like Rotterdam. And there was one among them he had slept with not ten days ago, though, like him, she was married. That night at least, sex had seemed the only cure for the angst she was carrying for her people. In return, she had eased his loneliness now that Clarissa’s depression had become so intractable.
“A chair for our American guest,” Dabrowski commanded.
“And a vodka, too?” The speaker wore ratty boots, unlaced.
“No, though after, he may beg to drink to keep from pissing in his pants.”
A chair was set facing Dabrowski and Wade feigned calm. The light-shouldered older fellow with wire-rimmed glasses on Dabrowski’s left was one of the Solidarity assistants that stayed in their own room down the hall from where the press corps waited for announcements. Sitting on Dabrowski’s right, taking notes, was Viktor, the man with the bolo necktie who often drove Walesa to the talks. The rough clothes and manner of the other seven men cut a sharp contrast to the cardboard formality of the generals and government party officials. To remember them for any article he would write, Wade linked their faces to friends from high school.
Dabrowski scanned him as if assessing his character, then spoke in perfect Russian. “We have been watching you.” He placed his palm on his chest. “I became a fan, reading your coverage from Berlin.”
Whatever this gathering was for, Wade hadn’t seen the like in his time abroad. He bowed his head. “Spasseba bolshoya.”
“And do you like me?” Dabrowski asked.
Wade considered his answer, looking also for the right words in Russian. “I don’t know you well enough to say, but when you speak to the press, I find complicated ideas making sense.” He paused. “I steal things from you.”
It seemed the room took a collective breath and several men slapped each other’s shoulders in delight. “He speaks like a Russian.”
“And I intend to sue you,” Dabrowski said with a laugh. “As soon as we have courts that respond to more than money and bullets.” He switched to Polish. “So you’re safe for now. Safe to talk about opinions. Your newspaper proudly says it doesn’t peddle opinion. Is it true?”
This was a harder point to handle on the spot and Wade realized why Dabrowski could sit at the table and fight with generals who had the power to have him shot. “I try to adhere to facts.” He looked around the room at men whose press had lied to them at every turn and hoped he wasn’t ruining whatever goodwill they had. “But a man who has no opinion probably writes—” and he hesitated, thinking again of Clarissa, back in the good old days, when she’d taught him to speak directly as things arose in his mind—“probably writes shit.”
Glasses of clear liquid appeared in the hands of several of the men and after exultations, they finished them off with the confidence of butchers strangling chickens.
Dabrowski raised his hand for quiet. “Good. So how do you deal with opinions?”
Wade preferred being the one in control of the questions. “If they get too loud when I’m writing, I shove my pen down their throats.”
Dabrowski stood up on massive legs, walked outside the circle and ran a finger across the old slate blackboard. When he came to the youngest fellow in the room, he placed his hands on the man’s shoulders. “And if you could find the truth to an old secret, could you be trusted to tell it and not expose the people who brought you to it? Do you have opinions about that?”
He was being tested. “What does a secret have to do with opinion?”
Dabrowski sucked his lips. “Opinion is the juice that makes a man care. Being true to the facts shows that he does.”
In salute, Wade lifted a glass he didn’t hold.
Dabrowski acknowledged the gesture with a nod. “And protecting his sources shows his humanity.” He turned to address the wall behind him. “And the Soviets? What is your opinion of their treatment of the Eastern Bloc?”
“My opinion?” Two nights ago in the hotel lounge he and some colleagues had argued this very issue. “Debatably worthy ideas misused to garner power. Though in that regard, capitalism comes in a close second.”
Dabrowski turned back to face his men. He seemed pleased. “Frankly, I’ve never been able to understand why you Americans don’t all kill each other.” He started walking again. “But here’s what I want for Poland, and it’s something I can’t give my country. Time. More than anything, she needs time, time to negotiate an end to this oppression. And these talks are probably the only ones we’ll get in my lifetime.” Heads in the room nodded as if connected to camshafts. “And though Gorbachev may mean what he says about keeping his hands off—God knows he’s ass deep in his own problems—I know our generals are begging him for KGB-sponsored riots to give him pretext to send in the troops massed along our border. We have informers in their midst that tell us so.” He placed his palms together like a priest about to pray. “Jaruzelski—our beloved president—will do anything to keep change from coming. At this point, he still has to go through Gorbachev, but there’s a crowd of thugs under Gorbachev who will . . .” Dabrowski drew the fingers of his left hand across his neck. “All it takes is for a couple of generals to act on their own, to send the orders, and in a matter of days all will be lost on our side.”
Sensing Wade’s impatience to know where this was leading, Dabrowski continued. “We need someone to keep the Soviets spinning toward their own demise, make it worse for them in the short term, so they won’t invade us. Before you leave here you’ll understand why it can’t be a Pole, why it can’t be anyone in the Communist sphere.” He made a spitting sound. “Pack of thieves and bullies. We need the truth to get out to the West.”
“The truth about what?”
“The biggest lie ever told, at least if you’re Polish.” His face suggested he was going to be specific, but all he said was, “Will you help us?”
The contest for the biggest lie ever told was crowded with entries. New ones cropped up every year.
“My mother was Polish,” Wade said. “Russians killed her father and she saw her grandparents skewered on German bayonets.” He stopped, unsure of where this tack was taking him, but he knew from the quiet of ten half-wild men that he was in the presence of history. He longed to join it. “What do you need?”
“Go to Belarus. We’ll help you get there. Talk to a man and bring his story to the West. Put it in the papers.”
The Round Table Talks had been fraught with struggles over minutiae and had been stalled for the last four days, but if Wade was gone when they resumed, that was grounds for getting fired. Something Clarissa might welcome. “How long will it take? And the risks?”
“A couple days,” Dabrowski said. “And, since you ask, you could create an international incident. Or simply disappear.” He backhanded the air with such disregard it took Wade several seconds to realize it was his life Dabrowski was dismissing.
As Wade’s heart slammed once, Viktor flicked his hand to get Dabrowski’s attention. His voice was not unkind. “Tell him we know what happened to his father.”
Wade bored his eyes into Viktor’s. “You know?” His mind leapt to the noire 8 x 10 photograph of the journalist Robert Waters from the shoulders up, standing in the light of a street lamp, a fresh cigarette hovering near his mouth, head cocked with a glint in his eye as if just called by the photographer. The rooflines behind hinted at some European city.
The day after his mother told him his father wouldn’t be coming home, he’d found the pieces of the photograph in the trash. In the early years when she slept, he would fit his father back together on his desk. Even now he carried the meticulously repaired image in a plastic cover.
Dabrowski pulled him back. “Viktor’s not correct. We don’t know what happened to your father. We know he was a casualty of—” and he made small loops with his hand to signify everything that could go wrong—“the troubles inside the Curtain.”
There it was. The troubles inside the Curtain—a simple way to express Soviet tyranny grinding forty distinct nationalities into one ruined tribe. Wade’s troubles would always include his father vanishing in the hellish days of the Hungarian Revolution with barely any outcry from the United States.
Dabrowski clapped his hands to keep himself on track. “We’re sending you to finish fifty years of mourning and to help us create a new era. In return, we’ll do this for you: if you’re not back in seventy-two hours, we’ll delay the talks another day, even if Jaruzelski begs to give us everything. And we’ll do all we can to get you out.” He looked each of his men in the eye. “If you succeed, Poland will become free in the present and free from the past.” He gazed wistfully at the map of his country that hung crooked on the bare wall to his left. “Her remaining free in the future depends on whether we Poles are idiots or if we are truly tired of being run by them.”
Wade had worked abroad for more than a decade. His research was relentless when good stories arose and his reporting was distinguished by his flair for drama. But what had always eluded him, what he longed for, was breaking the one great story that would make his career.
“Without knowing what it is, I can’t say if I’m your best choice, but I want to help you. Promise me, though, this is news, not spying.”
“Some don’t believe there’s much of a difference there.” Dabrowski pointed his finger as a warning. “No one ever needs to know how you get this story. That’s your protection.”
“Where do you want me to go?”
Dabrowski leaned forward and spoke in a stage whisper. “Have you heard of Katyn?”
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THE TROUBLE WITH WISDOM
In the unraveled world of 2051, virtue, infrastructure, and political order have long since failed. Honoring a life’s promise to his spiritual teacher by bringing justice to people living on the Tibetan Plateau, doctor Zhampa DiOrio leads three reluctant heroes overland from Vermont, west through communities struggling to rebuild humanity. Having suffered for crimes he committed to survive the anarchy that overtook his country, his vow to avoid using violence doesn’t free his band from enduring it. And though he catches glimpses of sanity through the failures and victories of others, apparently he will have to lose a lot more before he comes to terms with his own fury.
The Trouble with Wisdom: Prologue plus Two Pages
Prologue: Tibet, March 1959
At first light, Selpo Rinpoche woke to the roar of his monastery’s warning gong. Thinking fire, he threw open the shutters and scanned the temple, the library and the labyrinth of monks’ cells, until movement outside the walls caught his eye. A monk was running barefoot down the mountain, maroon robes flying, blood staining his trail in the snow.
Later, while he and his lamas tended the monk’s wounds in the warmth of the great kitchen, Rinpoche listened as the monk relayed his news from over the Iron Snow Range. A Red Army unit had corralled laypeople and monks in the courtyard and demanded the senior lamas renounce their faith and bow down to Mao Tse Tung. When the lamas refused, soldiers shoved pistols into the hands of the novice monks and ordered them to kill their teachers. But the boys, in keeping with their vows, turned the weapons on themselves. In response, the soldiers emptied their guns into the crowd, then dragged the women and girls to the temple, laid them on their backs under the statue of the Buddha and raped them.
All that day, Rinpoche walked the halls, rallying monks and villagers as they passed supplies and relics hand-to-hand out the Eastern Gate to the parade grounds, where porters loaded a caravan of yaks. Close to midnight, he waded through the crowd in the moonlit courtyard and mounted the horse his attendants had packed for his escape south, over the Himalayas.
Reins in hand, he peered through the juniper smoke at the ancient square—the raised plaza where he had learned to debate the fine points of wisdom, the prayer wheels he’d turned as he circumambulated the statuary hall, the banners and gargoyles and, on the roof, the golden Wheel of Peace. He saw, too, tomorrow’s courtyard awash in blood. Centuries of labor and devotion were about to be swept away.
He’d had no time to think of what to say to the multitude now pressing around him. Upturned faces and wind-scoured cheeks. “This life we cling to is . . . ” In the sphere of light he saw his little brother in the arms of his uncle; and the old boot maker, Dundrup; and there, Chintso, the girl who once inspired him to question his monastic vows, now pregnant, leaning into her husband Gyaltsen, the handsome salt trader. “This life we cling to . . . is a dream. It can’t be grasped.” The words weighed on him like a lead cloak and he steadied himself on the horse’s withers. “Those that harm others don’t know they are tightening the ropes of their own suffering. So when the soldiers come, show your compassion.”
As all the people Rinpoche loved bowed their heads in honor, his old teacher, Lama Dawa hobbled toward him, breathless. “Rinpoche, my heart son, we cannot leave these here.” He raised a small bundle in both hands. “The Chinese will just melt the gold for their teeth.” He peeled back the brocade to reveal the Scepters of the Lineage. The sight of them made Rinpoche draw his breath.
He had only held the scepters twice. The first time, he was three years old. Lamas from the monastery had come to his parents’ nomadic camp and laid them before him alongside perfect counterfeits. “Choose the ones you held in your previous life,” they’d said. The task was easy. The real ones spoke and the copies lay dead. Couldn’t these wise lamas tell the difference? He’d broken into laughter lifting the real Dorjay, and the lamas had celebrated the discovery of their deceased abbot, reincarnated.
The second time was five years ago. The scepters had been coming to him in dreams and, though his vows prohibited him from even seeing them, one night he sought them while the monastery slept. In his hands, they became hot, as if protesting his disrespect. Frightened, he’d put them back. And for a fortnight, in meditation, his mind churned.
“You should be on this horse,” he told Lama Dawa, “not me. You have the polished wisdom.”
The old man shook his head. “I can’t change what’s coming, Rinpoche. The prophecies are clear: the slaughter of monks and, more, the violation of women in the temple is the beginning of the Dark Age. And you, my son, are too valuable. You carry all the skills of the lineage and the world needs them.” His toothless gums appeared behind a smile. “I’ll be here to help in the morning. Go, and don’t look back.”
Knowing argument was futile, Rinpoche slid the bundle into the pouch inside his robes. “I’ll keep them safe, but they belong here in these mountains.” All around him, monks and villagers were still bowed, peeking up with their dark eyes, straining to hear. He raised his voice. “They belong here, in these mountains, in the hands of the Enlightened Ones. When this chaos ends, I will return them. Somehow, I will return them.”
His teacher’s bony hand hooked the back of his neck. As they pressed their foreheads together, Lama Dawa whispered, “Find an heir and train him well. Don’t let these teachings be lost.”
Ninety-two years later, in the year 2051.
After cinching the saddlebag under Coco’s belly, Zhampa watched him wheel and bark in anticipation of setting out. The dog didn’t understand they wouldn’t be coming back. One last time he looked around the courtyard where he’d lived for almost fifty years, then felt behind his arms to make sure old Rinpo’s lineage scepters sat snug in their holsters. In the narrow view they were two small objects, six pounds of gold and silver, and he was simply their porter. But Rinpo had convinced him they were the key to ending the misery The Unraveling had unleashed on the world. The lamas at the foot of the Naked Red Lady Mountain in Tibet were waiting for him to return them. They’d already been waiting a long time.
The farmhouse door opened and candlelight spread across the last of the snow. When Zhampa turned, Celeste was leaning against the jamb the way her mother used to on summer evenings. Backlit, her hair glowed red and she seemed to be cradling the old cat in her arms. But when she raised her head to speak, her hands were fingering the knife sheathed between her breasts. “It doesn’t seem real, leaving here separately.”
As if to quell her worries, he smoothed the tarpaulin on the cart where he’d hidden tools and cookware under bags of seed on the off chance one of the Valley Folk was on the road after midnight. “If anyone saw us together with loads like this,” he said, “They’d know we were leaving.” All winter Zhampa had avoided suspicion by keeping to his routines, but that afternoon he’d opened the corrals and pasture gates, freed the chickens from their house, emptied the grain barrels onto the barn floor and hooked the great doors back. Everything else he owned he’d left laid out in the house like at a bachelor’s wake. For those from the village who would come looking, he’d hung a sign on the door. Take the livestock. Share the rest with your neighbors. “You know what to say if you run into anyone,” he told Celeste. “We’ll be waiting for you up there.”
He shook the harness straps straight, and after working his shoulders into the yoke, he touched his palm to his chest and extended it to Celeste. She hesitated, then mirrored the gesture. Glancing at the rising moon, he slid his head into the pulling strap, whistled to the German shepherd and leaned forward. The old bicycle wheels of the cart creaked into motion. He didn’t look back.
At the first turn, when the three-year-old Suffolk ewe trotted alongside as if intent on joining them, he stamped and bellowed to drive her through the gate into the high field, knowing the other sheep would follow her bell. Her bewildered look haunted him all the way down The Hollow road.
When he came to the river, he followed it south through what had once been the most productive land in The Valley. With the farmers gone, poplar and sumac engulfed the carcasses of tractors that had died when the oil stopped coming. Cherry, birch and oak stood twenty-feet tall in the cornfields and Vermont farmhouses lay cracked open like husks of hickory nuts, their hand-hewn timber frames dissolving in the rains.
Soon, spring would harden the ground and pulling the cart would be easier, but Zhampa agonized over what lay west. Since fleeing college in South Dakota many years ago to escape the chaos of war, he had gleaned one truth from the wild stories travelers told: the main threat would be the packs of survivors they ran into, their choices about civility, and what they might try to exact from his little band before letting them pass.
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